Alone yet along

The smiling incense
Of the biting lie
Engraved the innocent heart.
Inflicting pain in a silent cry.
Tearing apart the conundrum
of love, hope & life
Was but the scorching denunciation.
A putrid smell filled her soul.

Stars & dark on the green meadow
The breeze stayed afloat.
Far away in a different land
The depraved emotion of longing
rose to amorous heights
concealed in a friendly demeanor.
Alas! She moaned in a hushed sob
as the cryptic messages tormented her soul.

The soundless lament of a broken heart
shrilled though the pervasive sky.
No shudders from the vociferous hoar.
Abandoning reason & purpose of love & life
she sank in the numbness of deceit.
DID NOT WANT TO PUT UP A FIGHT.
She had lost without an enemy in sight.
All that in the name of eremite capacity (space).

Jaded & crippled like a weary soldier
she saw the sun set on her love.
The love demised in her.
It succumbed to the deceitful charlatan.
Faithless & hurt she wailed aloud inside.
No words, just pain filled the air.
Broken though strong, she shattered.
Lonesome, she drifted away from death.

As the mist covered the sea
a new morning settled over the city.
She knew that the scars will never heal.
Chasing all the fears
she followed he Sun to warm her heart.
Wiping away her tears she knew
‘Though she will be with him
She will be alone forever though along (with him)’.

Reality but Dreams !

[This shares the emotions of a woman waiting for her beloved knowing somewhere in her heart that her love was not honest to her. Her thoughts automatically animate into visions which could be real but when her wait is sure to extend she decided to culminate it herself. It is a poignant situation because of its ending but her visions may or may not be true. In the last line the warmth can be understood to be from the blood or the fact that atleast she is sure that the pain she feels is real.]

The cushion of the wind
Surmounted to char the plagued heart
As the dusk turned deep Red
The colored lips chapped
Eyes gazing out through the window
Caressing the mountain road
No one to be seen
But the creeper & the green.

She heard the chatter (in her head)
Of the far-off crowd
The laughter on the wine & cake
The clink of crystal glasses
The jingle of the silver on juicy steaks
As the light breeze moved the drapes
She woke up from a dream she thought
Or was it true?

An hour passed like a snowman’s year
She sat on the couch
Still she could hear
The rhythm of the brass
And the deafening cheer
As a couple vanished
Into a silent dark
Jazz played quietly as the scene grew stark.

The sheets folded under the skins
Wood felt the shiver
As the hands clinched tightly
Her bosom grew fuller
In the spirit so knightly
The smitten peaks grew louder
She could now hear nothing but their breaths
As she closed her ears with a shudder.

This is not true she shouted
And heard the phone ring
“Honey! I will be a little late”
She was silent
“Don’t wait over for dinner” she heard before the voice went blank
She stood numb & cold as the iron that slit through her wrist
Now she knew atleast the warmth settled around her was real.

The Secret Chasm

Bewildering amongst the chatter
Of the old Kolkata street
Promised for a better tomorrow
On the asphalt turf
The little heads creep up & down
In the din of the Howrah bridge

Floating in the music of classical heart throbs
Enchanted by the concrete caverns
Pitter-patter with the falling rain drops
They hide under the shady plane
Chowringee Lane just means a path
A deafening crowd is but a political propaganda

What stands for fun is a free meal
Or chasing kites & dogs with friends
Hide & seek is what life means to them
As they remain hidden from all eyes
Except when they pass a windscreen with a duster
Or steal a laughter in the sidelines.

Surmising through the childhood years
Every day they live amongst moving shadows
Which never notice them
Lightning their footpath homes
Are none but their twinkling eyes
Conjuring a dream every now & then
Though it is a struggle to keep alive

They cook, they sweep, run & sheep
Work every day to survive
Years fade like billboard ads
Cleaning, washing & doing all what’s there
To find, if there exists
A way to the Secret Chasm.

Pepper & Green

Surfing through the narrow lanes
The dusty streets & crowded window panes
Honking motors fill Chowringee Lane
Cotton sarees & Rabindra music
Still form the backdrop of Kolkata strain
From somewhere I smell Pepper & Green.

Blazing loudspeakers & shinning posters
Conjure the neighbourhood streets
To a political battlefield
Cars & buses & horses & trams
Are what bubble on Park Street jams
On a noisy evening filled with fish curry smell
The ‘phuchkaas’ invite the crowds on the side streets.

The bustling traffic quiets down
To the concert music of Ray festival
”Nandan” waiting to be decked up
For the maestro’s (Tagore’s) birthday
Dressed up in anxiety & glee
Part of the city peeps out to Hugli

Early morning is fresh with the new catch
Fishes, crabs, squids & prawns
All decorated near the sidemarket of Howrah
Decadence & panache is what fills the painter
Who stands freezing this all on his canvas
The moment melts to office hours
And rushes to a quiet afternoon.

Sun sets peacefully near the Victoria Memorial
When the Queen’s Road fills with tourists
Flip-flopping on horse carts racing through the Red Road
Is the reminiscence from the past galore
All settles to a quiet night
But Howrah never sleeps

As the city drapes a new blanket
Of an intermittent laughter
Tickling from the street side dwellings
The beetle breaks in the (beetle) cutter
Of an old Bengali home
While a classical song
Pulls the city hum to a quiet slumber
The city still feels like Pepper & Green.

Save the Pain

Wondering if it will come to placate

The ever ending Chase

Of the paragon, who overturned the Phoenix

Is it passé to believe it is true?

Or is Pastiche like a tirade

Joining the common jargon

Do I become one of the whole?

Does it even matter or jus a hoax?

Kinda so invisible

Even the shadow does not see it

Call it timidity or a result of remorse

Emotions are but viscous

Thick and glutinous- numb within

Without wings- Life is but onerous

Is it ostentatious to fly? (With your own wings)

Gonna be the boat- the one with sails

One which calls Freedom with its name

Is it not Catharsis as an alternative?

Why measure an infraction to carousal

Why measure the pain by a chalice?

Is it real or not- can’t u tell

Forgetting all and making all look like hell

Can’t u know a Chameleon from all what u see?

Or do the sins separate me from the angels with you

Mollify the morose- save the pain

Before it drowns into me.

HEAVEN IS NOT FOR ME

(This depicts the feelings of an angel who is in love with a human but does not leave for heaven till she sees her beloved who is not with her anymore.)

Dwelling in the symphony of a breathing heart

As the rhythm fills my soul

I know I am still living

Even when something else than love fills me

I am waiting but I will never find it somewhere (else)

Plummeting down the echo spiral is my own voice

Reclaiming my happiness is but remorse

Can I ever forget who I am

But I don’t know my heart beats

They don’t seem mine no more

Am fading away to something (none)

Fragile is what I am no more

Just shattered and broken

Hanging with the chanting of undelivered news

I am still waiting to erase the melancholy

Don’t want to be so far away

May be you feel the same someday

Angels falter and Satan falls

I still keep waiting on Earth

To see you someday, to bring it back some way

Don’t want to give up

Am not gonna leave for pearls or for smiles

Don’t want the angels or the sea

Would wait on Earth just to see you

Till that Eternity, Heaven is not for me.

LAST WORDS

(This depicts the thoughts of a lover who still misses his beloved.)

I thought it was true

All what u said and all what I did thinking I should

FRAGILE was the name of the bond

I don’t know the sound

Of the broken glass or breaking of the heart

I thought I won’t ever be far away

I thought it was true..........All what u said

Watching the waves break alone on the sea shore

When the wind just stops

It’s so lonely but it’s not sad

The winds will come

I keep the faith

It all jus faded away

Wish I could bring it all back..............All what you said

Still standing on the verge of breaking dawn

I wait for the Sun

To feel the warmth, the love, the sunshine

But you had flown away

To some place ......not in my heart

Its empty, it’s hurting.......u just faded away

About to die to live or live to die

Its missing- All what u said

All changed, everything turned around

When you decided- all alone

The only things left were – the last words

Pain filled the space where u lived

It was all different now

After your last words- when u said Goodbye

Words never replace the thoughts in my head

I still want all but the last words- All what u said.

Qualifying For Life

Hush of the dew
Leaving the grass blade
Listening to the Opening bud
Sheltering
The clouds above

Are the words that go unread.
Eyes are watching
The sounds that go beneath
Music to my soul
Unleashing the unheard
From the chasms of the deep.

Contention meets silence
The potential is unearthed
Connected by emotion
Ascent takes no leap
Listening to silence
Is the sensitive subtlety.

Forborne are the waves
Morphed by design
Breathing the world inside
Undoing the time
All the words are spent.

Canvassing the universe
Juggling ONE life
Listening the INTENT
DECIPHERING the mind
Trying to be real.

Learned the learning
Valuing the engagement
"I never stopped trying"
Qualifying for life.

Qualifying For Life

Hush of the dew
Leaving the grass blade
Listening to the Opening bud
Sheltering
The clouds above
Are the words that go unread.

Eyes are watching
The sounds that go beneath
Music to my soul
Unleashing the unheard
From the chasms of the deep.

Contention meets silence
The potential is unearthed
Connected by emotion
Ascent takes no leap
Listening to silence
Is the sensitive subtlety.

Foreborne are the waves
Morphed by design
Breathing the world inside
Undoing the time
All the words are spent.

Canvassing the universe
Juggling ONE life
Listening the INTENT
DECIPHERING the mind
Trying to be real

Learned the learning
Valuing the engagement
"I never stopped trying"
Qualifying for life.

I AM THE FOUND

It seems just right.
It seems just fine.
The clouds just seem
To pass away.
I don't see
If it is good-bye.


To watch you over
To see this through.
The roads will never
Hear the sound
SO NEW.
Out on the inside
I see myself
Waiting to hide.

Falling out is nothing
But a CRY
Shadow is what makes 'today'.
Slipping between the truth
Is but a lie.

Sun just sets never.
Shadows extend over time
FOREVER.
The clouds, Mist & Kite
All vanish in a flight.
To COME AROUND
Yet another day .
Yes!
I AM THE FOUND.

Holding back the time
The shadows will not stay .
The dark will have to
WALK AWAY.
The shine of your eyes
Will make the way.

Found the flowers in the sand.
I SILL HOLD ON.
Get me out of the HIDE
Where I feel ALIVE.
I hear the sound
yes "I AM THE FOUND".

Floating Through My Mind

Hanging on
To the words that grow loud(er)
Every minute of the night
Through the desert in my sight
Every single star
Shines bright.


Going somehere better
I travel to the sea
Till the words
Flow over me.

Drowning Swimming
I see dreams in the water
Stirring in the sun
My soul is in motion
I see you in REVELATION.

Flying in the light
I am leaving the city tonite
Hanging on
To your floating eyes
I fight through this haze
Of light, shadows & Mirage.

I can see you here
You feel so near
I won't go
I won't go AWAY
No matter what they say
I am THE LOST & THE FOUND.

Sunshine is what I se
Floating through my mind
Is just but me!!

HEAR ME

Raindrops on the dry sand
Clouds raining to fill this land
Dark and shinning on the desert sky
Gushing winds bring in your smell
It makes my heart swell.

Breathing this cold
Something freezes inside
Am I still alive
I hear my heart beats go insane
Do u hear me?

Looking around
I see the same sky
Everything seems new
But all pictures include you
Oh! I know its not true.

Rolling, Misleading
The winds hurt my head
I am not going close
Not close to the wind
Not close to myself
Can't hear myself.

No sleep in my eyes
I am asleep
Frozen, forgotten- can't hold on
How can I let it go
Feels HOLLOW.

Do me right
Don't want to fight
No one but me
Got to set me freE
Hear me!!

Do you see me?
The cold in the winter is me
Falling down forever
The rain in the picture is me
Faling down forever
The rain on your face is me
Do you hear me?

Undo the distance
I AM WAITING
Placid and cold
As stoned in Gold
Shatter the pain
Which does feel sane
HEAR ME.

REMEMBER ME?

Good time to talk

Right time to be

Looking back at times

Kinda seems

Just the way it should be

Calling out loud is the one askin

DO U REMEMBER ME?

Walking up & down this road

Telling all the time.

Knowing it is August

And the Sun will shine.

Dangling with the clouds

This time is but to stay.

Am gonna be

Forever with you this way.

It seems like yesterday

When the promise was to stay.

It was all that u do

That made me love u.

When all the thoughts started

Flying up in the sky.

Staying awake like a lie

In my eyes are you.

Fluttering in the bright sky

I seem to forget the sigh.

It was like Christmas.

Shinning on a snow night

Is that the star that tells me you are my?

Searching around for you

Pretending as if you remember me.

Truth is what is not true

Lie just seems to be shy.

Light now seems dark

Darkness is not there.

Am I still wondering if

YOU REMEMBER ME.

In my heart

Hoping to be
Who you are .
Wanting to go
So far.
Lying close
To the smell of your soul .
Breathing the cold
Which makes me whole.

Secrets lying
In my heart too deep .
Dreams flying
The coast that's just a heap .
Follow the heart
Till I fall asleep .
Scared of me
Coz of the little world that I keep.

Hours go by
Till I say that you are my .
This time if its over
I need you to cover
My heart, my soul .
You make me whole .
Take it back
Show me how to start
Baby! you are in my heart.

Promises & Lies

(This song represents the feelings of a singer who takes charge of his life to sing again after coming back from a 'bad' sabbatical in jail .)

Single promises, Single lies
All the rhythms
Just pass by
Its all FINE
Just everything is wrong
Gotta learn a new Jazz song.

Twenty miles from Nashville
Doing better now
This is where I live
May be some day
Waking up on a morning
I will learn how to sing.

Second chances
Never come on time
Tune in the radio
Early morning is fine
Gotta learn a lesson
Am not crying this time.

Pull the strings tight
Watch the guitar stay
Strum the chords, wise
Coz its just about sunrise
When the world wakes
To see what all is at stake.

14thJan
Its about time
Turn on the TV
Let the noise shine
Out of the stripes
I sing again
Promises & Lies
That's all I reign.

Belief

If a drop of water falls in lake there is no identity.
But if it falls on a leaf of lotus it shines like a pearl.
So choose the best place where you would shine..

Life in a shack

(This is a composition from a shack dweller who is hopeful to change his life& make today a brighter day)

Eloquence of poverty
Comes as nothing but charity
Subsisting but empathy
All that persists is apathy
Conjuring the dreams
Surmising what seems (real)

All in the lonely road
Swifting down the green meadows
Sinuous like the river
Which flows
Through caves & caverns deep
Through all the emotional heap

Like the wind in the wings
Or the cloud which sings
Floating with the summer rain
Turning inside out as some sane

Midnight is the time
When trees chime
To cover the barren backs
Sheltering the faceless shacks
Of dark & despair
Of hurt & hope
Still silent in the dark
Waiting for a spark

Hoping for a new day
Cherishing a bright ray
Of living a better life
Of making it fine by the night
I start my day again
In the city which lives
From my shack to the top of rain

Again will I hunt
For my life and every stunt
That makes me
Will put up the struggle
Its in my pedigree
Striving again
Just success
Is what I wanna be.

MISLEADING

(These represent the musings of a lover)

Sure it is true

Whatever I do

Your thoughts cross me through- EVERYTIME

Whatever it takes

I will do all to fake

No hurt no smile

All is MISLEADING.

[Chorus]

Beyond the shore

The waves can’t hide

The noise the cry

The smile the glide

The touch

When you are by my side

Waiting forever for what is true.

Its all MISLEADING

When I am with you.

Without you its lonely

Don’t set me free

In your eyes

I wanna see

The love the dreams

The mystery

Cant just let it be

Summer clouds are still what I see

Its all MISLEADING

When I am with you.

Were you really leaving?

And now you are gone.

Don’t wanna believe this

Don’t wanna be ALONE

Want you around

Listening to the music

Without a sound.

Its all MISLEADING.

[Chorus]

SUMMERS FOREVER

(These lines talk about my experiences in Sweden this summer)

Flowing into the shadows

Drowning in the dreams

Settling on the surface

The faces comes unseen

With the wind in its fancy

They fly the highest scene

Captivating the twilight

Listening to the Sun

The moon is reborn

Out in the meadows again

The summer sky is shining

From night to dawn.

In the deep blue color

Of the sweet ocean

Your eyes

The brown woods

Come alive

Under the night Sun

Falling asleep only in your arms.

Mystery fog over the river

The canoe is stirred

By waves of passion

Love stays deep inside

The church bells ring

Keeping the faith in the summer rain.

The sky is blue

Full of summers clouds

Bright Sun shinning

On the peaceful city

Sea gulls in my sight

Floating over the dark roofs.

The seconds freeze

And the days go by

Whistling with the crowd

Making merry with flowers

Spending with the froth on the sea

The dream ends now

The summer will last forever.

ARE YOU GONE

(These lines show the feelings of a person who does not know whether his beloved has left or is around as he knew her......he misses her)


The flow rushes through my veins

Talking to nothing but clouds above

The voices in the head

Turn to mute

All seems to rise inside

The silence is HUSHED

[Chorus]

I never thought that I would cry

When I don’t have you by my side

Now I just don’t live any day

When my heart is so far away

Every thing reminds me of who I was with you

Baby - I MISS YOU

The space in my heart

Speaks but your name

Thoughts crash in my head and go insane

Do you ever feel the same

I never felt this way before

My life does not seem mine anymore

The sun moon & stars are not the same

ARE YOU GONE?

[Chorus]

The time does not flow

It just passes by

I feel you here with me

I still see your arms around me- I want to fly

Is it just a game

Or you really felt the same

We had loved each other

Thought it was true

The smiles the tears the blush & sneers

Felt all so new

The eyes are now dry I just feel no sigh

I can still feel the dew

I MISS YOU.

(Lucky Sharma)